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acommongirl- November 25th, 2009
curious
A few days back, on a lazy sunday afternoon as I was going through the paper trying to enlighten/entertain myslf, I came across this piece of news which left me thinking for days on. It went something like this.....!! yr old Boston boy is the new Gyalwa Lorepa Lama.....as I struggeled getting my pronunciation right(damn my ignorance)...i could feel the curiousity and eagerness bilding up inside me to dive into the story and know it all....I have always had a very keen and conflicting interest in the paranormal...and hence I choose to believe I am an agnostic keeping my options open and ofcourse...playing it safe...anyway moving on...as the story said ....an 11 yr old kid(and I counsciously choose the word) had been recognised and acclaimed to be the reincarnation of Gyalwa Lorepa 1187-1250, who was as I understood one of the renowned masters of tibetan buddhism. I have always found buddhism very enigmatic. I think its calm as well as resolute ...what has attracted me the most about it is its closeness and oneness with Nature. Anyway my purpose of writing this isnt my inclination towards buddhism or any ism for that matter. So i will try to control my narcissism and my undying urge to talk/write about me and my likes and beliefs...I shall reserve that for some other entry....anyway moving on....as I read this I could not help but imagine the life of a 11 year old who is born and brought up in Boston, a regular kid until last month , who like any other kids must have digged into Mc Ds, must have loved camping , must have dreaded homework , must have dreamt of growing up into a star wars charecter someday(am not sure what do the kids of now a days watch of go gaga about....i just feel so old....haha)....and now he is living in a monastry in India, getting trained to be the next master...as i read it I learnt that he is not allowed to speak to or even touch anyone other than his teachers. I wonder at such a delicate early age when he should be playing with his friends or eating junk food or watching sci-fi movies , he is learning ancient scriptures and getting trained to guide his people and bestow knowledge upon humanity. This tingled the never dying question inside my head....is there realy a life after death???...what happens after we die???...do we come back??? does that mean there is a heaven and a hell too???....is it possible for lesser mortals like us to have memories from past life???...or is it only for the chosen ones???....what about the little kid ...does he really know what he is doing ... can a little kid who has hardly a blur idea about life or death for that matter, really comprehend words like reincarnation....doesnt he still stare out of his window into the night sky and think of his days with his friends and family and wished to go back in time, the time which must seem to him have existed in a different space altogether....I wonder who/what was I in my past life....think about it....
- OPEN RELATIONSHIP
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- acommongirl
- November 15th, 2009
disappointed
Here i am in yet another blue phases of mine.Its that phase when i feel helpless and angry and sad and frustrated and vulnerable all at the same time.I have all these not so pleasant emotions tormenting me and rushing through my mind resulting into unpredictable burst of quite inappropriate reactions.Like I am mad at the cable guy since the movie didnt have a happy ending.I am cranky coz i woke up late and am not sure whom to blame but i do blame someone.And many of this sort.Lately these phases have become a day to day matter. However the reason has remained quite consistent.The credit for my present misery goes to my conversation with my boyfriend last night.We were talking about relationships and marriages and how we wouldnt ever want ours to be a typical one where the flame dies wihtin a few years down the line and whats left is two individuals trying to tolerate eachother under one roof and constantly convincing themselves to go on for the sake of good times thats they once had which seems almost like a parallel universe.And while coming up with different ways of keeping that flame burning in our case,he came up with something which absolutely caught me off gaurd.He said he thinks that two people can be happy with eachother privided they are allowed to meet other people.It took me sometime to come in terms with what i was hearing.I almost couldnt believe my ears that what my boyfriend is suggesting is that we should have an open relationship.I always had the idea that peopla start with a casula fling then takes a step forward into an open realtionship and then only when they are absolutely sure of eachother and they know that they are in love that they decide to be excluve to eachother.And here i am talking to the guy whom i have been seeing for the past 5 years and now what he is suggesting is to take a step backward.........i kept thinking the entire night...what is it that i want from a relationship.....what is it that i want from my personal life...and i think what i wnat is stability and security(strictly emotional) and commitment....where is the scope of all that in an open realtionship...do i want to have an open realtionship at all???? ...hell no! what hurts most is how clear it is that he wants to meet other people ...i know it may be absolutely natural he is only human ..he can do whatever he wants...its his life ...but...i didnt fall in love with this guy five years back....i have this voice shouting inside my head that this is over dont u see it....i see it ...loud and clear ...but its been so long and we have had so much history that even accepting it is devastating...i know that probably we dont have a future ...may be he can never provide me with the things that i want...may be with him i can never really be happy again...but....its just been so long...and however unreasonable it may sound i think there is still this little part of me which has hope that someday maybe someday i willt wake up and look into his eyes and see that guy who showed me that you can love unconditionally and such things still exist...that guy who made me feel like the only thing that mattered to him in the whole wide world ... who loved me like there was no tomorrow .....that guy who made me believe in love....the guy i wanted to share the rest of my life with...the guy i wnated to grow old with...................the guy i fell in love with...................
- Writer's Block: Seeing stars
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- acommongirl
- October 30th, 2009
Which character from any film, television show, or book would you most like to take on a date and why?
Submitted By
blue_mariposa88
This should be interesting.....lets see..
Films ...Will Keane played by Richard Gere from Autumn in Newyork has to be one.... If i may ..Leopold from Kate and leopold...i just love that old world charm and elegance ....i wish I was Kate....maybe Jonathan Trager from Serendipity.....i wld love to believe in fate regarding love... Gerry from P.S. I love you.....I think its just so beautiful...I mean who wouldnt want to go on a date with someone so loving and caring and so thoughtful....his charecter was just great
books ....Oliver Barett IV from love story.....i dont think such men such such passion and dedication exiztz in the real world....atleast i havent come across any yet...Florentino Ariza from Love in the Time of Cholera
tv shows .....i think it has to be Chandler from friends .....he is cute and funny and he was so in love with Monica
- Writer's Block: Nature or nurture
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- acommongirl
- October 30th, 2009
Do you think your moods are controlled by your brain chemistry or that your brain chemistry dictates your moods? Do you believe people are born with particular emotional temperaments or that they are primarily shaped by environmental factors?
Submitted By
abelincoln1864
Woooww....is that a tounge twister???
- Writer's Block: Mysterious benefactor
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- acommongirl
- October 30th, 2009
If you could give a secret gift of any value to one anonymous recipient, who would you choose and what would you give them?
Submitted By
enchantra71
it has to be just one ....thats diffcult...it has to be a bureaucrat some big shot ...one of thos stalwarts who administer war and attacks on relatively weak countries ...wld love to give him a heart...and being anonymous wld pay off here....haha
- LOST AND FOUND
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- acommongirl
- October 25th, 2009
Every now and then i diligently go through the lost and found column of the newspaper....Quite a neglected and underrated part of the daily ...poor thing....however it has atleast one faithful reader...though i havent quite lost anything significant yet (read in the material world)....still this particular column has always fascinated me in a strange way.... its like the 60 seconds of fame for certain quite insignificant things which otherwise would have lived quite a unfulfilling life in someone's purse or locker or file or even dog house....but it doesnt end there....theres so much room for speculation and day dreaming ......today i read someone left a diary in the bus .... as it was a lazy afternoon and i didnt have much to do....i started thinking about the possibilities ....who lost it ....what was in it ...who found it ....what happens after this ....will there at all be a after this.....the possibilities are infinite ....thats what makes it so much fun....
- WHAT DOES IT TAKE???
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- acommongirl
- October 25th, 2009
cranky
what does cinderella have that i dont .....why dont i deserve to be with a perfect guy???? where are those perfect men from the novels and the movies ???????...seriously what does it take to get a perfect guy ????? how exactly and why do the perfect guy evolve into some jerk down the years????.... Though i am completely convinced that such perfect affairs do not exist ! but still somewhere deep deep inside i want to believe in happily ever after.......
- Writer's Block: Take the pain away
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- acommongirl
- October 25th, 2009
- irritated
right at this moment am extremely mad at my boyfriend ...i wanna tell him ......you dont deserve me !!!! i deserve so much better than this
- Writer's Block: So funny I forgot to laugh
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- acommongirl
- October 24th, 2009
If a friend cracks a corny joke, do you force yourself to laugh politely? What about if it's your boss or teacher? Do you get annoyed if someone else pretends to be amused?
Submitted By
maxwearsboots
i mastered a fake laugh for such painful yet so unavoidable situations....the world would be such a happier place only if some ppl stopped trying to be funny ...
- why a common girl
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- acommongirl
- October 24th, 2009
WHY A COMMON GIRL IN THE WORLD OF WANNABE UNCOMMONS???
Well lets see:
1.its really late/too early for serious thinking
2.lack of patience
3.easy to remember
4.it was available!
However on a serious note,thats who I am...a very common person...
like zillions and trillions of people i like the rains or so i claim...the secret is i like the storm but i feel guilty to admit it for the devastation and distress it causes...not many people seem to appreciate it much...and so i settle for the less controversial much glorified and widely romanticized rain....i love gazing aimlessly ...the trouble is somehow its a moral responsibility of friends and family to ask you what are you thinking and its quite a challenge everytime to come up with interesting and lucrative things to tell them...this is where reading the newspaper and watching daily news helps ;)......i hate meeting old acquaintances...i never understand what to say after "how are you?" and "what are you doing now a days"....down with whoever invented small talks....i am not a very big chocolate or ice cream or cake person ...but that in a mysterious way seems to affect many people in whose opinion its almost a crime.....get a life people!....i am a student but strictly officially....i have no clue what am good at ...am still trying to figure out my 'gift'....and lately i have a feeling that it didnt quite get delivered at the right address,it just got lost somewhere.....I love reading ....very few people know that i read almost all of sidney sheldon at school...i was completely hooked on to them .... what a shame!...theres worse...lover story is the first book that made me cry....i cried for pages....haha....i was just tooo young.... I love music ...am crazy about bob dylan...i strongly believe that he wrote 'to ramona' for me ....haha...i love my friends but sometimes i have this dark hidden desire to exchange old ones for new but only on a short term basis...:)..i hate cell phones ....whatever happened to a little privacy!..i hate phone conversations....i always have this fear that we will run out of things to talk about and hence whenever i have the faintest feeling that i dont have much to ask or say I make excuses and hang up ...it saves both ....its like doing a favor....haha...i love things in order...but 'things' exclude my life...i love taking vacations but only in off seasons when the rest of the world is busy working...it adds a sadistic pleasure ...i hate making trip plans...for me its a true vacations only if its unplanned...anyway thats pretty much me ...a little weird ,a little confused,a little real and a little pretentious...
Well thats not really all but its past 4 and i am sleepy ;P
